It's been about a week now since I signed up on Facebook, and I've been feelin' it out, trying to see if we're gonna get along or not - and I think we are. When I first signed up, now more open to connecting with people, I started searching for everyone from the past and wanting to see everything about everything. But now - yeah, not so much. It didn't take me long to get sucked in and then to realize that there's just way too much to engage with. And I've noticed that "everything about everything" doesn't necessarily want to engage with me either! So it works out.
I've decided to approach my Facebook page as an extension of my head or heart or house. It's a sanctuary. It's a place to hang out. It's my own private Idaho where I can come and rendezvous with things, ideas, and people that are special to me.
At first I was both sending and receiving "friend" invitations from people way back that I hardly knew. I genuinely tried to connect with them as best I could, especially the ones that were important to me, but we weren't connecting or sharing with each other. It didn't feel good; it felt false, contrived - so I deleted them. In the same way that I don't hold on to superfluous things, and in the same way that I try my best not to nurture feelings or thoughts that don't enrich my life in some way, I don't want a collection of "friends" that I hardly know or whom aren't already anchored in my heart to begin with (the people I know my world is a better place because of).
I don't need - or even really want - to talk to all my loved ones every day. But I adore signing in and seeing that they are there, all the people that I love gathered in one place, and knowing that we can connect with each other when we want to, when it feels right. I love seeing the pictures of my friends and family, just as if they were hanging on my bedroom "wall." I love that we're able to play online games together. I love that I can see all of the posts that they leave, and the way they share with everyone what's important to them - what they "like," and what's going on in their lives, regardless of whether it's considered "big" or "small."
In my opinion, this is all too special for me to be letting just anybody in.
Yeah, Facebook's a pretty cool deal. Took me awhile to get around to signing up. But pretty sure I'm gonna stick around.