Over time, I've cultivated many relationships online, especially in these last more reclusive years. Some people I've physically met and some I haven't. But each of them have been special to me in one way or another. I always like to say that once someone has made there way in to my heart, that's where they stay. Yeah, it's true that people come and go, and that relationships change or even seem to fade away - and I don't try to stop them. Not anymore. I don't need to. Everyone I have ever loved or ever will love are only just a thought, scent, or song away. Love is an inner joyous state of beingness. It only takes one. No bartering and no reciprocity are needed.
I'm not too sentimental about things; I can do without souvenirs or physical objects. I don't hold on to cards or letters; I don't need mementos. I am, however, terribly sentimental about memories themselves, and the love that brings them about.
The boy from New Jersey was only in my life for a short time, only some months. One of his favorite movies at the time was Sweet November, with Charlize Theron and Keanu Reeves. I'd never seen it, so one night when it was on, he called me and we watched it with each other over the phone - and it was so good! I still like it.
And ever since, I've associated him with both the movie and the month. A few years ago, after not speaking to him for a really long time, it occurred to me that, just for fun, I should let him know. So, I found him on MySpace and sent him a message wishing him a sweet November - and the tradition was born. Now, every year on November 1st, I do it again. I send him a little email just to say "hi."
He never responds and I don't expect him to.
I just like knowing that he knows he's remembered.
It only takes one.